A Note To My Mothers
Life is interesting, it can be full of so many ups and downs. So many supposed to’s and should have’s. It can be full of doubts and insecurities. You will have seasons of highs and extreme confidence; and seasons of challenges and extreme lows. But we all know there is no one path to life and no roadmap to follow. Motherhood and life parallel in so many ways. There is no rule book, no road map, and certainly no right way to do it. When I first learned I was pregnant, I was consumed with so many emotions. Most of which were anxiety, fear, a bit of sadness, and joy. I was so worried about what would happen instead of focusing on what was happening; I was blessed with the gift of bringing life into the world.
Motherhood is one of the greatest jobs one can hold. You are given the responsibility of raising a child to become their full self. You are the leader of the battle of life, the orchestrator of miracles, the warden when they lose their way, and the captain of joy. As a mother, you choose to put the needs of your child before your own, so you can see the glory and destiny of God come to pass in their life. Now, tell me why ANYONE wouldn’t be nervous about that!
Motherhood has taught me so many things. It has taught me to always bet a thousand on myself, prioritize my joy, surround myself with people who pour into me, be a vessel for those who can’t hold space for themselves, and for me always show up as THAT GIRL. Being a mom has knocked me down consistently but always reminds me of why I need to get back up. As a mother you set the tone for your children’s lives and your actions determine how they will show up for themselves and others.
As I approach my 4th year of motherhood, I’ve learned so much about myself. I’ve learned that it’s ok to not know what I’m doing but to also know what’s best for my child. I’ve learned it’s ok to show weakness, but also show how you muster up the courage to overcome. I’ve learned to be present and patient, to advocate for what is right, and to always cultivate an environment of love even when I don’t feel loving. I’m learning it’s ok to miss your old life while still enjoying your current. I’ve also learned that you don’t have to do it perfectly to get it right. To find yourself and not to get lost in being a mom, but to continuously drown in the fullness of who you are. To never let myself go because I can use my voice to ask for help. To speak up, speak out, show up, show out, and TAKE UP SPACE. So, here’s a note to my mothers, you have always been THAT GIRL, you will always be THAT GIRL, so continue to show up as THAT GIRL!
Krystal A Phillips