Girlfriend Woes

I miss those late summer nights. The nights where you let the breeze take you from adventure to adventure. The nights where you laugh until your belly hurts, and you reminisce for years. I miss not having a care in the world, where my only worry was what outfit am I going to wear and when I’m linking with my friends. I miss calling my friends to hang out last minute, and it actually happens. I miss my friends. 

Somewhere along the years, tides have shifted and we have flowed apart. No longer interconnected, but only connecting via instagram. I miss togetherness.  I miss partying together, hanging out on the couch and doing nothing together. I miss screaming, you look so cute together. I miss not having awkward silence together. I know life takes us each on different paths, but I miss us together. 

Like the time we were riding in my first car, when I didn't know how to reverse and we hit a pole together. Or the time we went to Jamaica and danced on the beach together. Or traveling 23 hours to Bali together. Or that one time we threw a surprise 30th birthday together. I miss holding space for each other together. I miss celebrating milestones together, like going to your moms 70th birthday party together. Or visiting me in the hospital after I had Avery together. 

I miss the way we would love on eachother. Calling out the good and the bad together. I miss celebrating together. Like when we rented boats for Meek’s birthday and sailed together. I miss the crew together. I miss meeting up after work to go to fashion events together. I miss reading each other's minds together. I miss talking about the future together. I miss being happy together! I miss the days when we didnt let life get in the way of us being together. I miss making bestie brunches together. I miss telling all our secrets together. I miss saying we need a tv show together. 

I miss my mom calling our names over the mic at a party together. I miss making the dance team in highschool together. I miss watching you in your first music video together. I miss us going to prom together. I miss sitting on the floor at your job during college break together. I miss skipping the line at the hottest NYC clubs together. I miss knowing we were the shit together. I miss owning the room together. I miss buzzing around the city being cute together. I miss seeing Lady GaGa for the first time together. I miss not minding our business together. I miss how we never judged each other together. I miss when we would say, just be careful together.

I miss how things were in our 20s. When life hadn’t become so busy. When we took the time to intentionally pour into our friendship. When we responded  to messages right away. When no event was too big or too small, we showed up for each other. I miss celebrating life's wins together, hyping each other up together. I miss my friends, my ride or dies’. I know life has to change and people grow and shift, but what we have is special and something I never take for granted. I love my friends! I can’t wait to create new memories to miss together. I can’t wait to share our stories with our kids together. I can’t wait to look at our spouses like you don’t even know how we were ripping and running back in the day together. Although I’m missing the old version of us, I can’t wait to build the new version together. 

Xo, 

Krystal A Phillips